ex·pec·ta·tion ˌekspekˈtāSH(ə)n/ noun 1. a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future. “reality had not lived up to expectations” synonyms: supposition, assumption, presumption, conjecture, surmise, calculation, prediction, hopeMore • a belief that someone will or should achieve something. “students had high expectations for their future” synonyms: supposition, assumption, presumption, conjecture, surmise, calculation, prediction,hope “her expectations were unrealistic” • archaic one’s prospects of inheritance.
I often get caught up then tangled and held back by EXPECTATION. Every day I carry around a bag in addition to my purse of what I EXPECT myself to do that day. I have unspoken EXPECTATION of other people. I am sure my children each have an EXPECTATION of me as a mom – sometimes I may meet these and other times fail them. I spent a few days in Connecticut as a guest of CCAR in a former monastery called Wisdom House. I did not plan; I did not preview and I did not set goals. I went because I was invited and because I knew I needed to be there. I left my “shoulds” behind. I do not know what will come of this symposium but it was a gift to be present among people who are inspired. People who are putting themselves out on a limb not knowing what will happen. People who believe in themselves, the future and the passion to make a difference. So, a list of 10
• I expect that tomorrow I will put forth a good effort to improve a corner of my world. • I expect that tonight I will find a peaceful, restful sleep so that I may wake-up refreshed. • I expect that as I exhibit calm, my children will be more able to manage their challenges. • I expect that the coupon for a new hair salon will be put to good use – it is a hint I have been too long between cuts and am looking shaggy. • I expect to feel a sense of patriotism and importance of participating as I have the privilege of being an Election Judge this week • I expect to be better informed this week when I participate in Red Cross training to be activated for emergency shelter service. • I expect that I will be thrilled when I have a moment to watch the stars, admire the changing leaves and feel a brisk Fall breeze. • I expect that everyday seems brighter with a smile on my face. • I expect to celebrate this month as my oldest turns 15, my dad turns 85 and my family gathers for Pie Day. • I expect that expressing gratitude, a word of thanks and appreciation will “pay it forward” to more acts of kindness.
A woman at the symposium shared a poem from Edwin Markham that I will share on another day. But, for now here is a quote from this poet who lived a century ago “There is a destiny that makes us brother. None goes his way alone. All that we wend into the lives of others, comes back into our own. ” ― Edwin Markham
Peace be with you,